^__^ LOVE ^___^

All the way I thought love needs no explanations,
that love can be heard even if it is not spoken, that action speaks louder than
words, and friendship is the most perfect foundation of love. Yet its not,
somehow you got to gather up all your guts and strength to stand up in front of
the woman you love and tell her how you love her, before you end up crying. But
well getting hurt is just a part of love, when you’re feeling the pain it’s
just a sign that’s its true love, just like in Angels and Demons “when it hurts
its real".

I DONT KNOW...

Peel off the pear skin,
ravish the inside, and squish the fruit… I don’t know… I wanted to
scream….. I wanted to jump over a nine storey building…. My beating
muscle seems trodden and slowly diced by a small piece of blade…. Every
volume of air my lung tries to engulf seems accompanied by the tiniest
needle piercing through my lungs towards my heart… yeah that’s how it
is….

My eyes were rolling towards number of people strutting back and forth, on
my ears playing a local FM station, my favorite of course… my system is
flowing through the song that the dj plays… when suddenly he uttered
this words…”what’s the purpose of sorry, when someone was already been
hurt?” …. It strucked me…. For about a minute or two I was dazed by
that phrase. I was consumed by the fact that I was one of those persons
that says sorry when I done something wrong. Well looking at the bright
side, I did admit my mistake….. But yes, he does make sense… what could
the word sorry do? Can it rebuild the ruined trust? Can it replenish
the love that declined? Maybe, yes….but not totally….

I don’t know how to end this… it’s just like that….. You’ve been forgiven
but the scar is there… one thing remains… how can I make up to it?

Welcome Me!!

its been a while since i haven't updated this blog... what happened was quite not what i expected.. devastating, a fatal blow on my hopes and even religious beliefs.... but i guess that is life.... short and unpredictable.

my last post was May 2008, this month seem to be the most tear-dropping, heart-crushing month of my luckiest year of 2008... Quite redundant lucky year and uhmm a never mind-forget-it kind of month...

starting that month my life was never been the same again.... yes never, and will never be again...
well let me just plot the story why on the next movie hahaha.... watch out ..

so welcome me back with a confetti... huge glittered banner^^